tonight's been one of those reflective nights for me

as of writing, it's pitch black in my room aside for my computer monitors, and i'm listening to a playlist of nostalgic wii music. wii music had such a clean fuckin vibe to it looking back, but i digress

in a couple days i'm going to be graduating from high school, and i have a lot of mixed emotions within me. i feel excited, sad, scared, a lot of things. and it's just one of those times where i feel uncertain about pretty much everything. i feel a big need to start doing adult shit as soon as i'm out, so much so that my parents have to keep reminding me to slow down. but it's kind of hard not to want to get to work right away y'know? expectations fucking suck man. i feel like i got to prove that i can be capable when no one's really putting that pressure on me, everyone is just generally accepting that i need to take my time and i'll do my best

but still, i can't help but be afraid. i picked up my cap and gown 3 days ago, and i feel strange every time i look at it. it almost doesn't feel real. i remember 6th grade like it was yesterday, and now here i am years later, all the way to graduation. life feels slow yet fast all the time.

back when i was a kid, there was this aesthetic that i'm pretty sure we all know about, and it's one i'm so damn glad i learned the name of:

frutiger aero

i really miss this aesthetic man. when i think of the 2000s this is exactly what i think of.

minimalism is so damn boring and you cannot change my mind. frutiger aero has a strange hopeful feeling to it??? it's pretty much supposed to represent a clean utopia where technology and nature are in harmony, hence a lot of the water themes. i think that's why the aesthetic resonated with me so much back then, it felt so hopeful

idk it's just things like that i remember in weird retrospective moments like this

but ye that's the end of dis blog, bye bye